Denial?

Lately I have been going through a lot of life changes. I sometimes wonder if I am in denial about certain things. For example, I recently got a divorce. That was a big life change. I had gotten married and started building a life with somebody, we were married for 5 years. I knew exactly where we were going to be living because we bought a place. I knew exactly where our careers were going, because we were stable and established. All the family functions were set. There were not too many questions about what our future would look like other than life’s normal curveballs. When I got divorced I started all over in my own from scratch. I walked away from everything and started at square one. I built this temporary life for myself the past year and now it is time to start making some more decisions on where to go next and what I want to do with my life and even choosing where I am supposed to live now.

As I look for a place I find myself trying to get ” back where I was” I keep wanting things set up how they were and to go in the same direction they went in when I was a married woman. Now that I am single again I feel like I don’t belong or that I don’t fit in with my own age group. Being 24 years old and having gone through what I have with a divorce on top of I makes it difficult to relate. As I go on my search for a new place , somebody asked me if I wanted a roommate. My first response was , no way because I am an independent career woman who is past ha phase in my life. But really, am I? I have to remind myself that I am starting over. I am back to square one. So who is to say that I shouldn’t have roommates or that I have to live alone like any other divorced woman would. I am still trying to figure that out. It is humbling. I am realizing that I have a lot to figure out still and I don’t know what direction is the “right one” but then again ….what decision ever really is the “right one” any decision you make will be he way it is going to go…..and you roll with it from there….I’m excited for this new chapter in my life. I am choosing to look at it as a new adventure. Starting from baseline is better than starting in the negative, and my situation is. Happier one now in my own personal life, so….life is good….whichever way it goes

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